10 years

Wow, I can't believe it has been 10 years. 10 years ago today I had just come home from the Billy Graham Crusade that was in town. 10 years ago today when I pulled up in my yard and saw all the cars I thought of only good things. 10 years ago today I was a naive child. 10 years ago today my life was drastically changed by the look on a face. 10 years ago today I received the worse news of my entire life.

In February, I did this post about my dad and my uncle and the 15 year anniversary of the kidney transplant. I knew that November 5 was rapidly approaching and I was just in denial that it would actually get here. I will never forget that Sunday night when I got home from the Billy Graham crusade. My Sunday School teacher (at the time) drove me home. When we pulled up in the driveway I saw cars everywhere and I got excited. My dad had been in the hospital for about 2 months so I thought that he was finally home. Boy was I ever wrong. My mom and one of my good childhood friends came out the door and I knew something was VERY wrong. My mom came to the side of the car that I was in and opened the door and told me the words I never wanted to hear - "Kimberly, Daddy is gone." I just sat there. I didn't cry (at first) and I couldn't move. When I did start to cry and tried to get out of the car my legs wouldn't hold me. My friend had to physically pick me up and carry me into my house. The next 3 days went by in a blur and I don't remember much but I do remember all of my family there and many of our family friends. I won't go into all of the details but I will say that when he passed away I became very angry at God. In the past 10 years I have found my way back to Him with a passion. I miss my dad terribly and I think of all of the things that he has missed but I know that he is with God.

I still grieve but I am doing good.

I miss you Daddy - always and forever.